19:38 25 september 2023 aisa kab tak chalega

 m bs avii uthi hu... mtlb meko avii uthaa gya h.... 

jab bhai tution gya ( 3 30 tk jata h 4 bje ka tyming hai ... singhaniya coaching classes jata hai.) tab mein soyi thy ... avii vo coaching se aaya usne bahar se aawaz lagayii thy ki gate to khol do.. .meko thoda thoda sunn raha tha... bt m uthi nahi ... ab 

mme ji aayii andr wale room se (machine chla rahi thy) and gate kholte huye boli "aa baisa ne suta rhn do... kaal bhi kachi neend suu jagaa diya" :: i was still sleeping nd meko ye sunn raha tha... neend m hi ... i was like ki hdd hoti h yrr 

(( reference : kal jb m so rkhi thy tab mme ji badi mme ke ghr gye thy gaaj ka varat tha to kahanii sunne nd may be sayad usii tym sutot wale masoso ka phn aaya hoga ki vo log idhr aa rahe h .... m soyii tb bhn v so rkhi thy most probably call aane tk uth gyii thy ya fir usko utha diya hoga... whtever it be.. pta nii

to mme ji unke ghr gye nd basu ne ekdm ache se ghr ko ache se sara dhang se kr diya tha... nd fir last m meko utha nd thodi der bola ki vo nahane ja ri h ... avii ghr pr mme ke masisa or aane wale h to unko mme ke aane tk bitha kr rkhna h.... meko smjh to aa gya ab yr m neend se hi uthi hu to koi react nahi kra.... 

chlo isko chodo... thodi hi der m mtlb avii vo nahane gyii v nhiii ki mme ji or bhai badii mme ji ke ghr se aa gye... nd m gate pr hi khadii thy... in mazak maine mme ji se kaha ki meko sone hi nahi diya... "avii soyii or meko utha diya" ::--- literally mme ji ne kux nahi kaha na hi react kra....

---> ab sham ko badi mme ji aaye nd unhone thode idhr udhr ki baat krke kaha " kyy baat h garima aajkal padhayii pr jyada jor h kyy --- mere kux v khne se phle mme ji ne keh diya "ki aaj vo aaye thy to isko neend se utha diya tha to so nahi paayii" --- thn baat na katte huye maine v bol diya ki hn... badii mme merii neend nahi puri huyi.... baat khtm ho gyi. mme ji ne v koi react nahi kra. ))

dopahar mein bhai pta ni phn m pdh ra tha ya shorts dkh ra tha.... tabhi mme ji andr se aayi nd usko dkh liya... to dantne lagii... kaafi der tk papa ji ke shoe se usko pitne ke baad... mere pr aa gyii bhyii bina hi mtlb..... nd bolne lagiii ki ee baisa to khud m hi lageda reve.... shrm bhajediii hai.... roti manngawee tab roti tk koni lar de sakee again i was like ye kyy tha.... or avii maine kra kyy avii to pdh hi ri thy

(( reference - aaj 11-12 bje mme ke kayii baar bolne pr maine rotiyan bnayii... nd jb 4th ya 5th roti bna rahi thy tb mme ji ne bola garima roti khtm ho gyii maine kux ni bola... thn boli garima roti dena... maine keh diya ki "le jao" thn she said ki kyy kaha --- i repeated the same line.... yrr m avii naha kr aayiii ek to waise v kaam krne m jor aata h ... upr se aate hi kahan bnane ke liye bola .... kyy nahaye huye bs unko paseena aata h meko nii... kher maine bna dii

bt yess fir boliii ki kal basuu to jb m badi mme ji ke ghr jkr aayi tb usne to lakr grm grm roti apkdayii thy

    nd is pr maine bol diya ki... ji ji aapke liye bnayii thy hmare liye to bnayii nahiiii  (( reference - kal sham ko basu roti bna rahi thy to boli m kisi ke liye nahi bnaungi aapke liye bna dungi 10 roti sbke liye mere se nahi bnayii jayegii... and at the same tym bhaiii roti lene gya to usko nahi dii... thn usne or maine din m maine jo rotiyan bna rkhi thy... whai thndii waliii khayii... nd 4 roti khane pr baaki jo thy unko grm krke khaya...)) 

thn us tym bhn or mmeji kha re thy nd m bna rahii thy to unhone react kra vo aaps m ek dusre tk kr liya...

baad m bhai school se aaya to usko bola ki -- (aise hi khate tym) ki roti isne bnayi h ptani kitti khane degi kitti nahi... khud hi khayegii charo tym to dkh lena is hisab se apna apna hisa

---  m sirf unkii taraf dekhiii ... bs.... kux v react nahi kra. nd baat khtm ho gyii ))

or han.... roti bnane se phle 

i mean kal jab maine grup khola to geography wala  to usme meko time table dikha... nd mere tote udd gye...ki 10 october se paper h... q ki itte tym se sun ne m aara ki ab ug pg ke v semester scheme hoga... nd isiii wajah se bina ye dekhe ki kiska h ... maine apne subjects dundhne start krr diye.... nd dkhte hi dkhte .... maine thodii der m mme ko bola ki mme mara ppr h... vo boliii kaiii ke.... m ka ba ke.... nd vo boli kb.... m ka 10 din baad..... nd she replied " or bna video... padaiii mst kr ri h"  again i wass like hadd hotiii h.... mtlb ab insaan vo v nahiii kr skta ... jisme usko khushi hotiii h.... mtlb mere kre hrr kaam se dikkat h ... m souuu to dikkat .... m mam ka kaam kruu to dikkaatttt.... m kiiisiiii ko kux padhauuu to dikkatt (( bhn bhai ko chod kr... yr vo waise v nahi pdhte mere se )) m khana khauu to dikkatt... (( uska bnaya hua pure din bina kux kaam kre )) mtlb 100 baat ki ek baat h ki ... jaisa vo kahe waise just usiii tym na kruu to dikakt hi dikkat h....

(( reference ---  avii maine mam ko kaha tha ki mam yt pr channel start kr lo ((to unke channl ke liye video bnane nd upload krne m tym clg m lgta h mmme ke mna krne pr v uddhr rukti hu))... on 9 sept imediately usi tym unhone kaha aaj day konsa h.. nd thodii der baad god ko yaad krke ... meko phn diya nd kaha ki bnao channel... thodii der baad maine v kaha ki name kyy rkhu... 

thoda soch vichar kr aaps m discuss kr.... google wagera kr ke... hmne name soch liya " physics by A.S."  is pr agle din unhone kaha ki thode tym baad m iska name change kr ke krungii " physics by dr/ as " q ki vo sayad phd kregii... bta v rahe thy ek din mam... aaj fir se btaya

10 ko nahi ---- school m us din sayad maine parents lekr gyiit thy nd bakheda khada kra tha...

11 ko maine uska 1st video record kra nd edit kr ke upload kra....

12 ko same 

or aise chlta raha... ek din basu boltiii ki m ghr pr mme ne btauu... ki tu itte tym mam ke video ke liye ruke apni cls to 2 hi ghnta lage... meanwhile meri clas 9 se 11 chltii h nd m ghr 2 or 3 bje ke beech aane lag gyii ab ghr.... maine v keh diya ruk ja mam khud hi bta deyii jb mme clg m phn krii tb ... teko kyy jarurat h ...

us din to kux nahi ... 2 din baad jb m subah ko naha rahi thy... tb usne mme ko bta diya pta ni kyy ky... jb bathroom m nalka chalu hota h to bahar ka kux sunta nahi h...m  to jab naha kr aayi to mme puchii to maine bta diya ... ki 11 bje khtm ho jati h cls... nd mam bolti h to m video bnati hu

she asked ki daily thode hi bulati h nd.... maine bol diya ki roj hi bulatii h.. unhone kaafi kux bola... nd q ki clg aane ka tym tha to m aa gyi/.....

ab q ki ghr pr danta tha .... to aaj chah kr v m subah mam ke paas nahi gyii.... (( mera dailiy ka routine h... hr din subah teachers 1st year walo ke paas jana unn se baat krna nd thn apni cls m aana... koi ho na ho ... specially mine fav ko dkhna nd thn cls m aana)) nd chutti hone pr v direct khana kha kr ghr jane ke liye neeche aayi to kamil ne rok liya... day before this vo meko dundh raha tha ndd anju mam ko v pucha tha ki garima kaha h to unhone keh diya ki bg h... to avii uske rokne pr ruk gyii... nd thodii der m mam dikhii unko dekh kr.... m hss v nahi payii q ki dimag m wahiii ghr ki bat... chl rahi thy... nd chah kr v na ruk pane ka vo alg se bura feel ho ra tha meko

bt jb thodii der baad jb m bhr ki or jane lagiii tb ... mam staffroom se aa rahi thy nd meko boli ki aajao.... m thoda rukii basu ki taraf dekha... na hss paa ri ... na face pr dukh dikha paa ri.... 

thodii der baad gayiii to ab aaj btech walo ka orientation ka last day tha... to full dg song wagera sound tha.... to mere dimag m kayii khayal aaye.... ittiii aawazz... to m sochiii ki aaj mam cancel krr degii... vo meko boli isme to aawaz aa rahiii h.... to boli koi option btao... thodi der to i was like mnn m hi soch ri thy ki mam kyy hi btauuu ghr jakr kyy sunna padega meko.... aap to jante v nahi h... nd us tym jo khayal aa rahe thy n... khud pr hi gusaaa aata h meko ..... bt thodi der baad unke baar baar bolne pr maine kaha ki upr room m chlo jahan meri cls lgit h (( hmari 2nd year ki cls 209 sabse upr lgit h udhr kisi ki v nahi lagtii )) to boliii ki udhr jane pr bakheda ho jayega.... sb bolenge ki ye hmari ek cls lene ke liye nahi ... is kaam seaate h daily (( actually hmari 2 cls lgti thy thursday ko bs ek saturday ko ek v nahi... fir v hm hr cls ke liye daily aate the )) to m hsna chah rahii thy ye sunn kr bt hss nahi paa rahii thy... bt at the end maine video record kr liya nd bina mnn ke edit v kr diya....

and may v mera waisa face dkh kr mam ne kaha jb video export ho raha tha... ki vo khud se kr legii export... maine v bs ek hi baarr pucha pakka na... ye v nahi kaha ki koi baat nahi mam ... m kr diungii... m fatafat neeche aaiii... to dekha ki gate bnd h samne wala v or piche wala v.... nd pta chla ki avii to or khulega v nhaiii... us din ganesh chaturthi thy.....to program tha... thn q ki btech walio ka last day tha orientation ka to unka or programm hua to kisi ko nahi jane diya 3 se 3 30 tk... to mere mnn m ek alg sii khushiii huyiii ki ;... aaj to bch gyee

thodi der baad himaat krke bhn ko v bola ki aaj to bol dena... ki programm tha or jane nahi diya... bhyii q hi mere piche padii h... nd vo v maan gyii nd boli ki ok bol dungii..

thn m hapily mam ke paas gyii nd bsu ko bhj kr bulwaya ki mam m hi kr dungii upload aap rhne do... to boli gyee ni tum log avii... to vo bol dii ki gate ni opn ho re.... to us din kr diya upload ...

fir agle din maine subah mme se pucha ki rukna h ya nahi unke rokne pr....to boli mna kr dena... m boli ki mere se to hoga ni mna aap bol do bhyii jyada vo h tb 

vo kux ni boli bs hss dii.

fir fir agle din mme ji pushkr gye nd boli ki bol dena mam ko ki mme ghr pr nahi h to meko jana hoga... to m bol dii ki thk h 

bt maine mam ko kux ni btaya.... maine video bnaya nd next day bhi

avii friday ko maine mam se kaha ki mam aaj 2 video bna lete h meko saturday ko aane nahi denge... to boli ki aane q nahi denge... m ka ki kal mere cls ni h na isiliye.... tb mam boli ki check kon krta h ... to m ka bss apn 2 video bna lete h ... bss aane nahi denge q ka chodo... thn thodi der m vo hs kr boli ki acha basu nahi aayegii tb... fir thodi der baad vo boli ki kal waise bhi chutti h ... ias ka center h nd ... nahi hoti to waise v meko bulana v nahi tha m to bs yun hi puch rahii thy.... unko kaise btatii m ki m to aana chahti hu... bt kyy kruu /.... ghr pr ky kux sun na pdta h meko

yrr meko mam bhut pyaari lgtiii h 

sachhh m bhuttt hi achiiiii ...... pta nahi q.... sachiiiiiiiiii... ye dkh lo